As I lay here staring into the dark, I can hear my husbands breathing softly and heavily, as he sleeps deeply. I can feel the three cats positioned around me. (My own personal heaters) Oh they make me so jealous. I wish my brain had a turn off switch. I wish the brutal stabbing pain in my back would cease and let me rest. I wish my finger and arm didn't hurt so bad. I wish I could make the tears stop falling. I wish for a Massage, to be perfectly honest.
Hmm Oh the dreams I have. The peace I have is that I know I will one day have a perfect pain free body.
But I can wait till then. So in the meantime I'll hide the tears for midnight while the rest are sleeping soundly.